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Violet Eyes Turns Brighter

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12.23.2009 mercredi, décembre 23, 2009

lolxToday topic: 1)She 2)Relationship Thank you HuiQi for that post.It somehow cheer me up.But seriously a part of me had die. -Blank- Relationship: I really don't know what to do regarding my relationship. Should i let go or carry on? Yesterday have a long chat with HuiQi. I was crying on the other end. I may look strong but when come to relationship. I tend to be like krykry. I am willing to give chances because i really want to last long. But i don't want to end up like Krykry. Damien , i really don't want to end this relationship. But i don't know what can i do anymore. It seem i cant secure your heart. Maybe i am not the right one for you? (EDIT at 12.16am) Thanks for cheering me up.I know you act like you don't care on the phone. I know you always "throw back" to me. Somehow i wish you could do something regarding this relationship. You know a relationship wont last long without two person trying. There are a lots things i want to tell you , but i don't have that courage to do so. Let me be frank with you, it seem that we aren't that close anymore. I sense that your feeling towards me is fading. I don't know which one of us has change. I started to miss your sweet talk , your morning sms , your calls, your concern and your love.You always say i think too much.But how can i stop it when you seem like giving me cold shoulder? I know you are busy with your stuff but can you spend some time with me? This little girl wants your attention for a moment that's all. This isn't a lot rite?A lot things i pretend i don't mind.I keep it to myself because i don't want stir up any unnecessary argument between us. But I don't want to bottle up those feeling anymore because i can foretell if i don't do this ,those minor problem may lead to bigger misunderstanding.Plus i am trying my best to make this relationship succeed.(you know it why) I admit i am a very easy jealous person. I hate to see you are being so close with them compare to me. When we go out , we act like couple. When we are on phone , we act like normal friends. Sometime i wonder where is that Damien Tang i used to know? He used to be so sweet towards me , always giving in to me.But now i don't know am i thinking too much or asking too much from you. I even dare to hold your hand when we are near my block. I know there is a high possibility of being caught. But i still do it because i want earn back your secure and trust. It seem so hard for me because i feel like i am the only person who is trying.It is pointless when your own boyfriend don't even appreciate it.So now what do you want me to do? Can you tell me? I don't want that answer " you thinking too much , you creating trouble for yourself." How are we going to improve on this relationship when you don't even let me know your feeling or thoughts. I don't want another break up to be solution. Breaking up isn't the best solution. (sorry for being DAM straightforward , i know my words hurt you a lot. But i don't have a choice because i don't want to bottle it.) P.S. I will be fine after sometime(should be a long time) because i cant get over Krykry. The pain is unbearable.Now there is a wound in my heart, the only way i can do is.... Don't let anyone to enter my heart. Because i cant find another person that i can rely on just like Krykry...